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3. UNABLE TO TRUST SELF Many people, myself included, just don’t trust their own intuition or senses. Maybe they have trusted it once and something bad happened, causing them to not be able to trust themselves. They blame themselves for bad judgement or poor intuition, and don’t believe any subsequent messages, inadvertently blocking more from coming. Sarah had just ended another relationship. Her boyfriend had been cheating on her for over a year and she never knew. All this time, she thought he was the man of her dreams. She kept asking herself how she could have been so wrong about him. This was not the first time she chose a guy who was bad for her. She decided her intuition could not be trusted. Even when the messages came in loud and clear, she pushed them aside. She felt she had let herself down too many times and could not trust herself. Shutting down her intuition also blocked her connection to spirit, since she was not trusting anything that came through her. I had been studying healing for many years. I worked with several teachers, attending retreats and seminars to open up my intuition and spiritual connection. I jokingly referred to myself as “the blind healer”, because it seemed like everyone around me was clairvoyant, but me. I wanted so badly to be like them! My frustration would build every time I went to a workshop, feeling worse about myself and my abilities. Why am I not receiving anything? What is wrong with me? As time went on, I realized that my gifts were not in clairvoyance, but in feeling (clairsentience). It is true that I don’t see things the way that others see them, but they don’t 48 feel things the way that I do. It wasn’t that I was “blind”, I was just “seeing” it differently. I was so focused on messages being one way, that I was blocking them from coming another way. It took a lot of practice for me to trust the information that came to me, and to believe I was receiving information from the divine through sensations in my hands and my body. PAY ATTENTION Once the blocks to a spiritual connection have been removed, it is important to be open and aware, and pay attention to the myriad of ways the communication may occur. We get so busy in our lives, rushing from one activity to the next. We may pray for signs or messages, but then we cruise along through our day and at the end say, “Hmm, I didn’t get any answers to my prayer.” Well, did you take the time to receive the message? Is your awareness open to receive the answer in whatever form it may come? Spirit is calling you. Are you listening? Can you hear it now? Kris Groth - Kris is a spiritual mentor, energy healer, and bestselling author of Soul-iloquy: A Novel of Healing, Soul Connection & Passion. She is passionate about helping people connect more deeply to their own truth, to promote healing and restore balance to the body, heart, mind and soul, and to live a soul-connected life. Kris serves clients around the world through her healing, and spiritual mentoring sessions, including powerful custom guided sound healing meditations using crystal singing bowls. Claim your “Sacred Sound Healing Meditation & Affirmation 4-piece gift set.” www.AspireMAG.net | October / November 2019