Aspire Magazine: Inspiration for a Woman's Soul.(TM) Oct/Nov2019 Aspire Magazine | Page 47
Subconsciously, Rachel decided that if she
couldn’t trust them to keep her safe, she
couldn’t trust them for anything else either.
She put up a block as a way of protecting
herself. A block that stopped her from
receiving messages and also sensing any
connection with Spirit. Now that Rachel is
aware of this block and why it was created,
she has the power to do something about it.
Within the safety of the meditation, she also
asked questions of Spirit, “Where were they
when she needed them? How could they
have allowed this to happen?” and finally
received answers she desperately needed.
“We were always there with you. We made
sure you made it through the tough times
and survived.”
This revelation changed everything for
her. She was not abandoned. She was not
alone. Her old wounds began to heal and
she was now able to take steps to re-open
her connection to Spirit.
2. UNWORTHINESS & SHAME
Past trauma can also cause one to feel
unworthy. Unworthy of being loved, unworthy
of receiving good things in life, unworthy of
happiness, and ultimately not good enough
to be connected to Spirit. It is common after
abuse to feel ashamed and “damaged”,
believing the Divine would no longer
want anything to do with them. They shut
themselves off from any communication with
Spirit, essentially isolating themselves and
allowing the negative dialogue in their heads
to take control.
Actually, this can happen even without abuse
or trauma. Unworthiness is something we all
experience to one degree or another. It is a
deeply-held unconscious belief that there is
something wrong with us. I believe it is part
of the human condition, and something that
we need to learn to overcome and realize
our innate value and worth. History of abuse
seems to multiply this exponentially, as
the hurtful words and actions of others are
added to the already fragile self-worth, and
snuff it out or bury it deep within.
One of my clients, Kayla, grew up in a
household that used shaming as a way to
discipline. She took each “You should be
ashamed of yourself” deeply within herself,
and it formed the belief that no matter what
she did, she was never good enough, and
she was unworthy. She was also told that
God would punish her for her mistakes.
This not only reinforced her belief that she
was bad, but also disconnected her from
God. She believed that because she was
so flawed, she would never be good enough
and God could not love her.
Through a healing session, she discovered
a shield of shame she had erected to protect
herself from being hurt. It also inadvertently
kept her from feeling any love, support, or
guidance from God. She kept that shield
in place all these years believing she was
unworthy of receiving and being loved.
As this shield was removed, she could sense
the love pouring in from above. Tears streamed
down her face as she felt the loving presence
of her spiritual support for the first time in many
years. She finally knew without a doubt that
she was worthy. Her spiritual connection and
her old wounds began to heal.
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that the source of her block was past trauma.
Following a traumatic event in her childhood,
she felt angry at God and her angels for
abandoning her in her time of need.