Aspire Magazine: Inspiration for a Woman's Soul.(TM) April/May 2017 Aspire Mag Full Issue | Page 55

OR #3: You have an acquaintance that you simply cannot stand. She gets on your nerves and really ticks you off nearly every time you see her because she is incredibly self-confident. She clearly loves herself a LOT and thinks everything she does is valuable and worthwhile, and this really gets your goat…. you judge her because she isn’t modest enough; you are the model of modesty and downplaying your brilliance, and your criticism of this self-confident acquaintance plays over and over in your head. Any of this sound familiar? Each of these 3 situations are examples of the Shadow at work, and each and every human being on this planet has got Shadow energies running through them. The Shadow—first coined Carl Jung— are the parts of ourselves that we don’t consciously identify with. They are the parts of ourselves that we have either rejected or not recognized altogether because they are unacceptable or shameful or not allowed. We decided that these parts were unsavory and unwanted at a very young age. For example, let’s say that you grew up with a Father who was constantly overworking and you felt really neglected and unseen as a kid... you might decide that being ...your Shadow contains natural, normal and vital parts of yourself that you decided at a very young age you would NEVER be. meeting with her unprepared. Or somehow, you stay out way too late the night before your first meeting and show up exhausted. It’s as if your entire life you were a hyper- responsible person and then at the exact wrong moment your inner Lazy Sloth abruptly came out to sabotage you. Ambitious is “bad” and so you stuff your ambition down deep inside of you so that you can always be present for your own kids. The problem though is that your ambition still exists somewhere inside of you, and you end up feeling unfulfilled in your career. Or perhaps when you were younger your Father couldn’t hold down a job. And the family was always stressed out because of it and at risk for bankruptcy. If that’s the case, you may have decided at a young age that that laziness was “bad” and that there was no part of you that was ever going to be irresponsible. To be vigilant about this, you swept any impulses to relax and have space under the rug and became hyper-responsible. So much so that your responsible nature gets in the way of you having time for yourself, and taking pleasure in life. 55