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“ Learn to love every moment . Every moment is beautiful . Every moment is a lesson .”

I didn ’ t work or earn a living for two entire years after Teal ’ s death . Instead , I lived in a friend ’ s guest room , surviving on my savings and keeping my head down .
Suddenly everything I ’ d taken for granted — my business , my income , even the relationship I ’ d been in and the home that came with it — was gone .
Now ‘ the unknown ’ she wrote about was my world , and I had literally no idea how to navigate it . In the end , it turned out the only way actually was to surrender .
The same went for the word ‘ desire ’, which I read to mean anything I longed for that I no longer had . Like a home . Or a partner . Or a job . Sometimes that longing overwhelmed me , until finally I learned to relax about it .
Yet again , I had to surrender and accept . And so I did .
I also discovered that Teal may have had some kind of inkling of her death — or her ultimate spiritual ascendance , despite the fact that her cardiac arrest was completely unpredictable .
She journaled about a voice that told her she would ‘ die soon ’, which she decided meant she would transcend an old way of being .
She had other insights about this as well .
Written on the inside corner of the notebook ’ s cover , in a place of prominence , she ’ d noted :
“ You will be in your power when you are overtaken by the light , and you can see everything as an opening to freedom .”
Also this :
“ You were born to lead packs of people through spiritual life journeys , and now you are about to discover what that is .”
Teal ’ s learning and her personal evolution seemed to speed up as the pages progressed in this notebook . Perhaps it is that near the end of life , that we naturally sense we soon must leave .
It ’ s as if we are being prepared for death . For this is when everything suddenly snaps into perspective .
“ You are increasingly sensitive ,” she wrote near the back of the notebook . “ Be open to light , love and being present .”
And this :
“ Learn to love every moment . Every moment is beautiful . Every moment is a lesson .”
I was particularly blown away by an account of a sunset walk Teal had taken along Italy ’ s Amalfi Coast . As the sun was sinking below the sea , she came upon an old cemetery , and described it thus .
“ It was white marble and really amazing ... overlooking the sea , cliffs , mountains , and towns … So , I chose to go in and meditate , and I got this : ‘ Open your heart , open your soul and be .’

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